(Now if you haven't read Monkinisom yet you should before you read this post)
If you just read or remember from my Monkinisom post I was fasting from a lot of stuff, using my gifts God has given me was one of them. At the end of the fast I thought I should be trying really hard to use my gifts because when I didn't God told me I should. When I came back from my fast I started using my gifts more because I thought of how I should be using my gifts all the time because He gave them to me for me to get the best out of them. However, when I did the opposite of when I was on my fast I still felt like my connection strength with God wasn't what it should be.
Then God spoke to me. He gave me the thought "When you were fasting you weren't using your gifts enough. You should have used some of the extra time you had for that. However, when you went the other way using your gifts a lot it took too much time."
I learned you need to have balance. You can either do too much, too little, or just right. I can't be an extreme "monk", but I also can't use all my time using my gifts and forget my relationship with Him. Its all about the ballance. God is that balance. If I put Him in the center both sides will eequal out. God will tell me whether I should do more or less if I listen to his voice. there is only one thing I need to do constantly and with all I have. Follow God's Profound direction. God made us to do many other things too.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Friday, August 17, 2012
One Life
You have one try at life. You only have one chance. Life is singular. Life is ending. Life doesn't last. Life ends.
Truly we have only one life to live. All around there are people dying on this earth and you will never see them here again. We need to find in life what it really is.
Some are directed by God into the good life and find their purpose in life living for God. Others God allows to fall, be temped by the devil, and lies. Wait? God allows people to fall? Yea, everything is in God's hands, just think about how God allowed the devil to wreak havoc in job's life. So, the ones that aren't given the good life have to search for it and most likely they will go the wrong way. They chase for life in many things that don't mean anything. They search for it in money, possessions, girls, thrills, pride, accomplishment, and drugs. Life is about finding true happiness and meaning. The world doesn't offer either of those things.
Life is about finding your purpose in it. You have the most influence on it, so if you don't like it change it. When I think about living my life I think about a song by Switchfoot. Switchfoot's song lyric of "This is Your Life" really makes you think about what your doing with it.
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be?
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose.
Don't close your eyes.
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be?
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose.
Don't close your eyes.
Seriously, are you who you want to be? This is your life you can do whatever you want with it. I say we need to reach for the sky, reach for something higher with meaning. If there is no standard or purpose does life have any meaning?
When I was at creation festival this year I was working on drawing a picture. I was having problems coming up with ideas for my drawing, but then right at the beginning of the Newsboys concert inspiration and ideas flew into my brain. They must have been from God because the more I thought about the ideas the more they made sense and the more meaningful they were. Here it is.
You can see it says "You Have A Life To Live" on the bottom right corner. That is the main meaning of the whole picture, but there are so many other meanings based off that meaning in it. Its an abstract picture so it has to be explained to be understood. The man standing there is stuck inside the walls of restriction that are holding him back from living his own life. The sun and moon on the right say that dawn is breaking and time is running out. If he doesn't move quickly his chance to escape and live will be gone. What does the man do? He brakes the window in the wall that lets him see the better life on the other side. The better life is the beautiful flowers, trees, and nature just outside his reach. Now that he has broken through the window in the wall he is able to get out and Live His Life, there waiting for him. - Ecclesiastes 4:8 expounds on this.
Ecclesiastes 4:8 There is a man all alone; he had neither son nor brother. There was no end to his toil, yet his eyes were not content with his wealth. "For whom am I toiling," he asked, "and why am I depriving myself of enjoyment?" This too is meaningless--- a miserable business!
Where is life? How do you find it? There is a song by Thi'sl that says "I signed up to die". Its really talking about martyrs, but I think it also can mean that when you sign up in the book of life you sign up to die, to yourself. To find your life you have to lose it. When you give you life to God that is when you really find life.
Ecclesiastes 4:8 There is a man all alone; he had neither son nor brother. There was no end to his toil, yet his eyes were not content with his wealth. "For whom am I toiling," he asked, "and why am I depriving myself of enjoyment?" This too is meaningless--- a miserable business!
Last week God spoke to me and said; "Your time is running out". Now I'm not sure if He meant I'm not going to live for another month or time moves fast and your average lifespan isn't very long. Either way this made me really think about how it would affect the people around me when I die. What do I give to people around me (for example joy or meaningful thoughts) that if it was to stop being given would affect them? This really made me think about not living my life for myself, but others and God.
Don't wast your life searching for a good life in the wrong things. Go live your life, you can change it. You need to get past the walls holding you from real life. Die to yourself and live for God. Life is singular so what are you going to do about it? Are you going to live your life profoundly, live for God, and make the most of the life you have?
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Monkinisom
Pre-Claimer (This is not a statement of pride or recognition its is merely to express how sometimes your idea of things aren't necessarily the same for everyone or circumstances).
As a few of you know I was at city challenge this summer. I could try to talk about that week but it would be extremely hard to break it down to a lower level and make it shorter. This is what I'm finding nowadays, that alot of people shortened all these experiences into little blips. That's why i say stop looking at twitter and texts and really get down, talk to people and get deep with something that has meaning, or profound that is. Anyways coming back from city challenge I felt like alot of my daily experiences were going to change or stop. However, what happened was some stuff changed like I had quiet time once a week and I felt more comfortable praying in public. As a whole though not much changed, I was still on the computer alot when i could be doing better stuff with my time. As a result I decided to quit being on the computer for a week. However, I didn't just stop there I thought of how the computer took time away I could be spending with God and how alot of other stuff I do takes time I could use for God too.
In the end this realization ended up turning into a week-long fast from anything unnecessary that takes time I could be using for God. Now there were a few exceptions for things that are a little more necessary like eating, bathing, working, and obeying my parents when they have me do stuff on the computer or other things not allowed. What wasn't allowed was taking in media, reading books, other than the Bible, and things I do not directly related to serving God. That means no chainmaille and duck tape.
The first day started out quiet well, I had my quiet time then went throughout the day doing stuff I had to do and when I had time I prayed or read the Bible. I'm not sure how to explain this, but the first day I guess I didn't have the connection with God I felt like I should of had. I couldn't figure out why it felt this way at this point.
Now by the second day I think I was feeling withdraw, not from the computer, but from all my projects. God gave me the thought that i was probably feeling an un-connection with God because I wasn't allowing myself to use the gifts He had given me. I also felt like the only thing that got me to day four was God and being able to practice guitar. Guitar was the only artsy thing i was allowed to do and it gave me so much joy to use a gift that God has blessed me with. One of the things I have learned from this experience is that when I don't use the gifts God has given me I feel like I lose part of my connection with God. Even though I was making God happy by fasting all this stuff, He didn't want me to feel alright not using the gifts He has given me.
Another thing I wasn't expecting to learn was about calling. I sorta though that God really wants all his children to completely devote there lives to Him by forgetting the world and spending all their time with him. I mean like being a monk. However, I'm not saying I thought that God doesn't call everybody to spread His name across the world, I'm saying I thought God might want me to do this fast for the rest of my life. God wasn't saying that though, what He said really hit me. God called me to not do what I was doing during this fast for Him the rest of my life. God way saying to me to Not stop using my gifts, but to use my gifts, and make them better so I can do great things for Him with them. Not much feels better than doing what God calls you to do. Without profoundness of thought i might have never found this great lesson out.
Dis-claimer (Now all I have written here God said to me. You have to go out and find what God has called you to do. You might find it during a fast like I did, but there are alot of other ways God talks to people so probably not).
As a few of you know I was at city challenge this summer. I could try to talk about that week but it would be extremely hard to break it down to a lower level and make it shorter. This is what I'm finding nowadays, that alot of people shortened all these experiences into little blips. That's why i say stop looking at twitter and texts and really get down, talk to people and get deep with something that has meaning, or profound that is. Anyways coming back from city challenge I felt like alot of my daily experiences were going to change or stop. However, what happened was some stuff changed like I had quiet time once a week and I felt more comfortable praying in public. As a whole though not much changed, I was still on the computer alot when i could be doing better stuff with my time. As a result I decided to quit being on the computer for a week. However, I didn't just stop there I thought of how the computer took time away I could be spending with God and how alot of other stuff I do takes time I could use for God too.
In the end this realization ended up turning into a week-long fast from anything unnecessary that takes time I could be using for God. Now there were a few exceptions for things that are a little more necessary like eating, bathing, working, and obeying my parents when they have me do stuff on the computer or other things not allowed. What wasn't allowed was taking in media, reading books, other than the Bible, and things I do not directly related to serving God. That means no chainmaille and duck tape.
The first day started out quiet well, I had my quiet time then went throughout the day doing stuff I had to do and when I had time I prayed or read the Bible. I'm not sure how to explain this, but the first day I guess I didn't have the connection with God I felt like I should of had. I couldn't figure out why it felt this way at this point.
Now by the second day I think I was feeling withdraw, not from the computer, but from all my projects. God gave me the thought that i was probably feeling an un-connection with God because I wasn't allowing myself to use the gifts He had given me. I also felt like the only thing that got me to day four was God and being able to practice guitar. Guitar was the only artsy thing i was allowed to do and it gave me so much joy to use a gift that God has blessed me with. One of the things I have learned from this experience is that when I don't use the gifts God has given me I feel like I lose part of my connection with God. Even though I was making God happy by fasting all this stuff, He didn't want me to feel alright not using the gifts He has given me.
Another thing I wasn't expecting to learn was about calling. I sorta though that God really wants all his children to completely devote there lives to Him by forgetting the world and spending all their time with him. I mean like being a monk. However, I'm not saying I thought that God doesn't call everybody to spread His name across the world, I'm saying I thought God might want me to do this fast for the rest of my life. God wasn't saying that though, what He said really hit me. God called me to not do what I was doing during this fast for Him the rest of my life. God way saying to me to Not stop using my gifts, but to use my gifts, and make them better so I can do great things for Him with them. Not much feels better than doing what God calls you to do. Without profoundness of thought i might have never found this great lesson out.
Dis-claimer (Now all I have written here God said to me. You have to go out and find what God has called you to do. You might find it during a fast like I did, but there are alot of other ways God talks to people so probably not).
Monday, August 13, 2012
Randomness of Mind
When life finds randomness life becomes random. Now as how random and unexplicit that is, it means much. Randomness is a must in life, without it life would be dull, boring, normall, and not changing. Why am I talking about randomness when this blog is about profoundness? This is because randomness and profoundness sorta go together. Two of the definitions of profoundness are: 1.Coming as if from the depths of one's being. 2.Penetrating beyond what is superficial or obvious. The first part explains what i want these posts to be; From the depths of me. God is living inside of me so hopefully what comes from the depths of me comes from God. The second part is about non-obvious things, that is where randomness comes in. I like to look at things differently than other people would. This causes what I see as my point of view to be seen by other people much different or random.
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