Jesus On Earth

Being that Christmas happened to fall on Tuesday I thought I would make a post relating to Christmas. I'm sure most of you have heard the Christmas story and how its not about the gifts or songs, but about Thee Gift given to us by God Himself.

The interesting thing about Jesus coming to earth is the fact that He was God. God chose to send Himself to earth in Human form. Jesus could have just showed up in a mist or He could have just fixed the world without ever showing up. However, God had a better purpose and plan. God made us able to make our own choices, so the only way for us to still have the choice to follow Him is for us to choose God over evil. Not having perfectness forced upon us, but Jesus giving us the ability to choose life by His death.

God put Himself, Jesus, under restrictions that we as humans are under here on earth. Jesus could have just not followed the rules of earth and fly, walk on water, and go through walls. However, Jesus did do some of these actions because we humans are stubborn and need to see to believe. Sometimes words are just not enough.

Another thing is Jesus had to come to earth and save us. If God just told us to believe in Him to be saved we wouldn't know the extent of his love. Jesus had to die. The Death of Jesus is so powerful. Without that power we would not know how much God loves us and we would be less willing to become His children.

John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave is one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

The Birth of Jesus was an interesting happening from start to finish from the virgin marry, to the shepherds, to the wise men. Then the purpose and reasons behind the things that happened like they did are so profound and show the great plan by God.

Ballance

Lately I have been finding that ballance is needed in just about everything. However to show what I'm getting at let me start with my own definition: Ballance is equal amounts on both sides resulting in stableness. Typically when I think I ballance I think of staying in control and upright when doing my stunts. However, I want to relate it to life. As important ballance is to keep yourself from falling down and hurting yourself, so is ballance needed to keep yourself from going to an extreme and maybe hurting yourself.

Ballance isn't a new thing for me to write about though, there are my posts Monkinisom and Un-Monkinisom. In Monkinisom I explained how it was a great experience but I felt like God was telling me I shouldn't seclude myself from the world so much. Then in Un-Monkinisom I was shown by God that I was being too immersed in the things of the world. What I needed was ballance to set that straight.

This keeps coming up in my life where I find I need to find a ballance between two things. For example I like to wear different clothes in a different style and try to make it look good. However, if I step across that delicate line of ballance I will end up looking like those people that have too much stuff too weirdly worn.

In my relationship with God I find that I can't just focus to asking for the Holy Spirit, I need to focus on developing a love for God, more focus when praying, more focus on worship not the sound quality, and many other things. If I only focus on only one of those things I will end up lopsided and off ballance.

How do you know what the ballance scale is? Where do you find that ballance or that scale to make sure your in ballance? God is that ballance scale. God will show you somehow where your at on the ballance scale and which way you need to move to right it.

One exception in your life where ballance isn't needed is how much you live for God. The ultimate thing is to have the scale heavily fallen towards God. Don't be teetering on that scale wondering which way you will go, towards God or towards evil.

Each area of your life has its own profound God given ballance scale.

(For all of you wondering or concerned with how I spelled ballance with two ll's, well that was all in purpose of giving ballance to the word ballance.)

Non-fictionable

Everybody has their own dreams. I don't care how big they are. It doesn't matter how hard it is to get there, it doesn't matter how impossible it may seem, it doesn't matter what others say. Dreams are something to hold on to as a door into the future, they are something to live for. It doesn't even matter if you accomplish this dream, what matters is your passion. Without a passion for your dream it isn't an accomplishable dream. Without passion you won't push through the pain, the hard times, and the things that bring you down to be able to rise up and live it.

The funny with with dreams is that sometimes the best part is going through the hard times. Its about the end result, but a lot of the time the journey there is better. In your mind its about the end destination, but the adventure is the real dream.

I dream all the time. Sometimes my dreams are things I want to accomplish and sometimes just pure fantasy. Why dream about something that you know could only be fantasy? I guess the way to explain it is, you know when your really into a good movie about some great hero on a quest? Even though your not in the movie or its not your dream, you still get really into it. Your thinking about that great ultimate goal that you want the person on the screen to reach. If its about the exceitment it doesn't matter if its fantasy. Normally the dream is about that jurney to the goal, or the excitement for the end goal.

However, don't forget that your dream may be non-fictionable. That means your dream may seem that it is unreachable to the people around you or maybe even to yourself, but that doesn't mean it can't become reality.

My dream is to get a job I will love everyday. At this point I think that will be being a professional snowboarder or something related to snowboarding. I can have faith in my dream and my abilities, but my faith should really be in God.

Matthew 19:26 - Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

The truth is that you can't accomplish your dream on your own. With God even the hardest, unreachable, and profound dream is non-fictionable.

What happend to the present?

The one day I looked up at our new clock on the wall that had the words - cherish yesterday, live today, and dream tomorrow on it. Now this is like most of those special meaningful things you put on your wall in the bathroom to ponder on. These sayings don't typically seem to make much of a difference. However, when I thought about this one I found out that I either replay the past in my mind or think about what the future could be. Rarely do I "live today" and make the most of the time I have. I don't know if this is a dissatisfaction with how I am living my life or what. However, if it is the case that I don't like how my life is, umm I should change it.

Switchfoot's song - This is Your Life -
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be?
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

We shouldn't relive the past so much that we never now where we are now and we should never look to the future so much that you forget what you need to face now. You are living in the present. You can learn from the past and see what might be good to go for in the future, but don't forget to apply it to your life now.

The past is the past you can't change it, only remember and learn from it. The future is to come, why worry about it or plan it? Your future is God's plan for you, it will be much better if you live that plan. I don't know about you, but I want God's will to be my path and my goal. And because of that my life will have the greatest profound experience than my own way.

My Story - The Little Snowboarder in me -

What is my story? Well I could write about many stories from my life, I could even write my testimony, however I thought I would write about a story most of you hear about. This story started like most, however unlike some this story is existing now and will keep on existing until I die. In a way this story is a my testimony, it definitely has many parts in my life's testimony.

What story? The story of me and snowboarding. Probably some of you would have seen this coming, but either way its is a story of many trials, errors, and excitement. Hardly anyone knows that even though snowboarding isn't my career right now and I haven't been doing it most of my life, it is a big part of me and has changed me not only in the ways that you around me see, but also spiritually. Yes, snowboarding has actually been one of the biggest things that has affected my life spiritually. So is snowboarding a religion to me? No thats not what I mean, its through experiences snowboarding or non-snowboarding experiences that have made me look at life differently and notice things in me that need to change.

Of course my story started back when I was younger. I used to be the little skier who liked to fly down the slopes at ski sawmill. I loved skiing very much then, I always wanted to go more times than I did in a year, but even as hard I tried to get my parents to take me more times I only ended up going once a year.

As any kid I have always looked up to a lot of people and I have always been one to hang out with older people. I had a few friends my age, but I almost liked my older brother's friends better. I don't know if its because I had a fascination with wisdom and found that in older people, if I wanted to be doing what the cool older people were doing, or if I was old for my age in my mind. The people I looked up to when I was a skier was the snowboarders. I remember looking at the snowboarders and thinking man, they are so cool, I want to be like them and snowboard.

So in 2007 I tried snowboarding for the first time. I wanted to be cool like a snowboarder should be, I didn't want the ugly orange helmet I was given at first and asked for a black or blue one instead. If your a snowboarder you can't be not cool it just isn't right.

 I always liked to go skiing with a friend so Brooks Gleckner and I decided to learn to snowboard together. Neither of us knew what we were doing and we had no one to teach us so we looked ridiculous falling down all the time.

A hard thing to explain about snowboarding is that snowboarding has a feeling of i guess a freedom, coolness, and sweetness. I can't just tell you what snowboarding is like, how fun it is, and you will understand what I'm saying. Snowboarding is unexplainable you have to go out and try it. An analogy of this is a sermon, you can hear how great whatever the pastor is telling about is, but until you try it will you know the power and greatness of it.

 I would like to point out that even as great a feeling snowboarding is, this is where snowboarding stops and God keeps on going. What I mean is snowboarding is all about the feeling, God goes way beyond just feeling.

Those totally cool feelings from snowboarding are I guess what kept me going every time I fell flat on my face. You can fall down every couple of feet, but each time you get a little bit farther and better your feeling of accomplishment goes way up. Every time I would fall down flat on my face I would get up with possibly snow on my face, down my neck, in my gloves that were soaked, and up my sleeves. Each time you fall you learn, the more you fall, the more you learn. I have this saying, "snowboarding teaches you to fall." So maybe thats what pushed me on, the knowledge that every time I got up I had more knowledge to feed to my knowledge hungry brain. learning how to fall is essential to keep from getting hurt and being able to learn from the fall. Some times you need to let yourself fall, because you know if you don't the results would be much worse.

After that first day I knew I would never go back to the skier I was, the future of snowboarding was much more exciting. Even as humiliating those days of learning were, they were the necessary experiences for my snowboarding story to become what it is.

The next year was I think when I started snowboarding in my backyard. At first I was very unsophisticated, I only used an old terrible plastic snowboard and a few metal pipes on the ground as a grinding bar. This was just the beginning of my crazy dedication to snowboarding.

In 2009 I had problems with forgetting what I had learned the year before. As a result I fixed that problem by going snowboarding more often the next year.

The next year was the year when my snowboarding life really changed and grew. This was the year I designed a more sophisticated grinding bar for better snowboarding in my backyard that got made. This was also the year my tricks got bigger, better, and increased in quantity. This was the first year I made a video of my snowboarding tricks from the season too.

Last year, 2011, was the craziest year of all. I went to New Hampshire to a place called Canon and another resort called Loon Mountain. Up north where the mountains and resorts are bigger it sorta feels like a dream. You can't believe just how amazing everything from the chairlifts, to the mountain, to the trails are.

Then something weird happened after I got home from New Hampshire. Anybody would think that a resort that is five times bigger and better than the one your used to, would be your favorite resort. However, I had developed a strong liking to ski sawmill, it is like a home to me now. Even as much I liked and how insane New Hampshire was, when I got back home I really missed my snowboarding home, ski sawmill.

The first day back at ski sawmill, was the biggest change that happened in my snowboard story. It was a great day, but then disaster struck. It was a good day still, but not even close to how I thought it would be a good day. On my third or fourth run of the day I went to do a trick, but when I came back down I caught my back edge. I fell about three feet with most of my body weight landing on my wrist. I felt a lot of pain, but figured my wrist was fine. However, after another run I knew I had done something to my wrist. I ended up going to the ER thinking I might have a broken wrist. I had been given good news though, I had only broken my wrist growth plate. I was still off of snowboarding for three weeks as a result though. Even after that God had given me an ability to stay happy even with how that day ended up being. The reason it was still a good day as a whole though was because of what I learned from the whole experience.

For a while after the incident I was faced with the question of asking myself what the reason for this experience was. I was sure there was a reason and that it was for me to learn something.

Eventually God hit me with the realization that I had pride. Not only a little though, I had a lot of pride in myself. I needed to be humbled and what I needed was to fall down snowboarding at my favorite resort when I was feeling all high and mighty and break my wrist growth plate.

The first thing this realization changed was how I was going to look at myself. No longer was I the best at the things I do well and couldn't mess up. I also now knew in my mind that I needed humbleness.

Then one night after that event when I was feeling scholarly I sat down at the computer and started writing a song. My mind was fresh with my problem and what happened in my earlier distorted mind. I was able to lay rhymes down really fast. Line after line it got better and better and it became a story in and of itself. It told the story of how I had too much pride, fell, and then was picked up by God and told I needed humbleness.

This past summer a lot of things were going though my mind. I don't know how to explain it all, but I guess I wasn't sure if God wanted for me to snowboard for a career. I was thinking I would get my driving licence this fall before the snowboard season so I could go more often. Then one day when I was driving to Wellsboro, I came upon a school bus coming to a stop to let kids off. I didn't think I had time to stop and the bus's red lights weren't on so I kept on going. A guy on the side of the road picking up his kids jumped in his truck and followed me to my destination, where the police came and wrote up a report. The first thing I thought about when I thought about the consequences of my mistake was; "I won't have my licence for snowboarding". However, in the end I thankfully wasn't penalized. When I talked to God about this experience and what it was for I was given the thought and feeling that God had given me this experience so that I would know that He wanted me to go on with my pursuit of snowboarding. I felt like I had crossed a huge bridge over the Atlantic Ocean into Europe."Europe" was a new perspective, new area to explore, and now snowboarding would be something completely different and profound for me.

From my whole snowboarding story I guess a summarisation would be that my snowboarding life was about learning to listen to God and to always be open to new ideas. God is very profound.

James 1:19-25 My dear brothers, take note of this: everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.
Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it--he will be blessed in what he does.

The art of explaining experiencing in writing

To be a good writer you don't need to be a good speller, you don't need to know good english, and you don't need good grammar. What you need to be a good writer is passion and a "feeling" for what you writing. If you don't feel what your writing or haven't experienced it for yourself your writing probably won't be good or impact a lot of people.

However, almost always the hardest thing to do when writing is to get your point across. You have experienced or know what your talking about, but they haven't. A lot of the time you can't just talk, think, hear, or read about something you have to experience it for yourself.

Chances probably are you can't get them to experience it, so you must explain it in such a way they understand and feel what your feeling about what your writing.

An explanation I once said was I can tell you all about snowboarding and how fun it is to carve down the mountain, but you won't know how great of a feeling it is to carve your way down a mountain until you try it. The person your telling needs to experience it to know what your feeling.

If you can't get the people your speaking to to experience what you talking about and what your talking about has to be experienced not just heard about, you got a problem. How do you fix this problem? You need to write in such a way, with so much feeling and emotion (they need to know its coming from the depths of you) that they either want to experience or learn what you did. Or maybe God can step in and move all the people into understanding.

This is the reason I'm stressing this point so much,  is as I am writing this I am really feeling what I'm saying and want you to understand what I'm saying, but I still feel like its not going to get across.

This is why good writers are few and not always so good. Their job is to make you feel like you just experienced or want to experience the experience. Words are hardly ever enough, even when you use your words profoundly.

No Fear of Death and Pain

So as I have metioned before I was at city challenge this summer with my youth group and how much it has affected me. This time I want to mention the first night we were there. It was the first night so all of us had no idea what to expect or think. My sub-group in my youth group went to a homeless ministry place in Columbus where we would start out and then go give out food to the homeless.

The first two places we went to where the homless met together we were just getting used to what we were doing. By the last place we were still uncomfortable, but we were getting alittle more used to it.

At the last place we stoped we were almost done, but there was still about one guy alone who still needed food so I went over to him. He was an older gentleman with that sorta rough, homeless person, that has seen alot of stuff on the streets look. I asked him if he wanted some food, then after he took his food I was about to leave and go back to my group because I felt awkward and sorta isolated he stoped me and said "Do you want to know how to kill someone?" I responed back "nah, I'm ok". Then he just started talking about how in the army they just teach you how to kill people and how he was in the Vietnam War and what that was like. Then he talked about how he spent three years over there just killing poeple and how at first its hard to kill people in a way, but you have to because if you don't kill them they will kill you. He also later metioned how he had killed someone just a couple of streets away once too.

At this point Brooks Gleckner who was in my sub-group was still over at the van with most of the group. Caryn our group leader was alittle worried about me being alone over there talking to that guy and thought I looked like I was uncomfortable. As a result she sent Brooks over to just be there for company because the guy did look a little shady.

As brooks came over the first thing he heard was the guy saying "You ever think of killing anyone?" Then Brooks sees the guy reach into his pocket and fumble around as if he had a gun in his pocket at that moment. Brooks was all worried at this point and then when the guy pulled his hand out of his pocket and pointed at me Brooks really though I was a goner. After we noticed it was just the guy's hand the guy starts laughing and we are just nervously laughing along with him. Then all of a sudden he stops laughing and just abruptly says "I'm Serious!" After that point I was still unsure of whether to laugh or not.

I on the other hand was slightly worried durring the time the guy had his hand in his pocket. All I had running through my mind was, does he have a gun or doesn't he?

There is a great quote in the movie Cars 2 where Finn Mcmissile says "You never feel more alive then when your almost dead." This Is a very true quote and I must say I like to live on the edge because of how it feels. However, when Brooks told me he thought I was a goner all I could do was laugh. I just don't have fear for my life. I belive my little fear for life is from when I gave my life to God. Because God has my life I can't die because Jesus already did that for me. I Signed up to Die - by Thi'ls explaines this point perfectly

Death don't have a hold on me
So death don't put no fear in me
I don't think that you hearin me
I signed up to die

Because God owns my life I no longer have to fear the pain of death and torment I can therefore live profoundly and without fear of loss of life. I can live my life God has given me, which I gave to Him.

Verseinsanity

The Bible if full of verses that mean so much. So i decided I should post a bunch of popular, meaningful, and profound verses. Thus justifying the title Verse-insanity.

We fix our eyes not on what is seen [suffering], but on what is unseen [eternal life free of suffering]. for what is seen [suffering] is temporary, but what is unseen [future good life with Christ] is eternal 2 Cor. 4:18

While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Rom. 5:8

There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. Rev. 21:4

In all things God works for the good of those who love him. Rom. 8:28


for it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--not by works, so that no one can boast. Eph. 2:8-9

Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 2 Tim. 2:22

Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. John 14:6, and there is salvation in no one else Acts 4:12

Right desires and motives honor God. 1 Cor. 10:31

A day of judgment is coming when God will hold men accountable for every careless word they have spoken. Matt. 12:36

The one who loves Jesus must obey Him. John 14:21

God will care for those who put Him first. Matt. 6:31

Like runners in a race, followers of Christ must throw off every hindrance in order to give Him their best efforts Heb. 12:1-2

This verse really makes me think about evaluating my life and finding what is holding me back.

The sinful mind cannot submit to God's law. Rom. 8:7 and disciples of Jesus must orient their minds as He did Phil. 2:5 

Taken from The School of Biblical Evangelism by Kirk Cameron and Ray Comfort

Authenticity

A lot of times when I see someone who is different or weird looking, I look down on them. Why do I do this? Its because I form in my mind an idea of how things should be, from my past experiences. So I form an idea in my mind of what is a normal person. However, when I or anyone else tries to define what a normal person is we can't put down a firm definition.

Most of you probably already know this, but I'm a very opinionated person. Then I should be able to come up with a definition for a normal person right? Yes I have, but its not like your thinking. I say the definition of a "normal" person or anything is relative.
If you have an idea in your mind of the "normal" person you can try to explain it, but you won't be able to. If everything you look like and act like is relative in definition it means everybody is different, just like God made us to be. If we are all supposed to be different this makes me want to try to be myself and be different. I should be the only person living my life.

I try to be authentic, different, and myself. I don't want to fit in while still fitting in. I want people to find something different about me that eventually draws them to God. Now you don't have to be different looking and acting to do this, but its just how I do it.

If its by being "normal" or "profound" that makes you who you are it doesn't matter, just be yourself not someone else, be authentic.

Disclaimer: (I must warn that you shouldn't become the wrong kind of different. Don't be the annoying, weird to be around, and just not the likable type because you try to be different. Don't make yourself an un-Godly example of different). 

Un-Monkinisom

(Now if you haven't read Monkinisom yet you should before you read this post)


         If you just read or remember from my Monkinisom post I was fasting from a lot of stuff,  using my gifts God has given me was one of them. At the end of the fast I thought I should be trying really hard to use my gifts because when I didn't God told me I should. When I came back from my fast I started using my gifts more because I thought of how I should be using my gifts all the time because He gave them to me for me to get the best out of them. However, when I did the opposite of when I was on my fast I still felt like my connection strength with God wasn't what it should be.

        Then God spoke to me. He gave me the thought "When you were fasting you weren't using your gifts enough. You should have used some of the extra time you had for that. However, when you went the other way using your gifts a lot it took too much time."

        I learned you need to have balance. You can either do too much, too little, or just right. I can't be an extreme "monk", but I also can't use all my time using my gifts and forget my relationship with Him. Its all about the ballance. God is that balance. If I put Him in the center both sides will eequal out. God will tell me whether I should do more or less if I listen to his voice. there is only one thing I need to do constantly and with all I have. Follow God's Profound direction. God made us to do many other things too.

One Life

You have one try at life. You only have one chance. Life is singular. Life is ending. Life doesn't last. Life ends.

            Truly we have only one life to live. All around there are people dying on this earth and you will never see them here again. We need to find in life what it really is.

            Some are directed by God into the good life and find their purpose in life living for God. Others God allows to fall, be temped by the devil, and lies. Wait? God allows people to fall? Yea, everything is in God's hands, just think about how God allowed the devil to wreak havoc in job's life. So, the ones that aren't given the good life have to search for it and most likely they will go the wrong way. They chase for life in many things that don't mean anything. They search for it in money, possessions, girls, thrills, pride, accomplishment, and drugs. Life is about finding true happiness and meaning. The world doesn't offer either of those things.

            Life is about finding your purpose in it. You have the most influence on it, so if you don't like it change it. When I think about living my life I think about a song by Switchfoot. Switchfoot's song lyric of "This is Your Life" really makes you think about what your doing with it.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be?
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose.
Don't close your eyes.

            Seriously, are you who you want to be? This is your life you can do whatever you want with it. I say we need to reach for the sky, reach for something higher with meaning. If there is no standard or purpose does life have any meaning?

            When I was at creation festival this year I was working on drawing a picture. I was having problems coming up with ideas for my drawing, but then right at the beginning of the Newsboys concert inspiration and ideas flew into my brain. They must have been from God because the more I thought about the ideas the more they made sense and the more meaningful they were. Here it is.

            You can see it says "You Have A Life To Live" on the bottom right corner. That is the main meaning of the whole picture, but there are so many other meanings based off that meaning in it. Its an abstract picture so it has to be explained to be understood. The man standing there is stuck inside the walls of restriction that are holding him back from living his own life. The sun and moon on the right say that dawn is breaking and time is running out. If he doesn't move quickly his chance to escape and live will be gone. What does the man do? He brakes the window in the wall that lets him see the better life on the other side. The better life is the beautiful flowers, trees, and nature just outside his reach. Now that he has broken through the window in the wall he is able to get out and Live His Life, there waiting for him. - Ecclesiastes 4:8 expounds on this.

 Ecclesiastes 4:8 There is a man all alone; he had neither son nor brother. There was no end to his toil, yet his eyes were not content with his wealth. "For whom am I toiling," he asked, "and why am I depriving myself of enjoyment?" This too is meaningless--- a miserable business! 

            Where is life? How do you find it? There is a song by Thi'sl that says "I signed up to die". Its really talking about martyrs, but I think it also can mean that when you sign up in the book of life you sign up to die, to yourself. To find your life you have to lose it. When you give you life to God that is when you really find life.

            Last week God spoke to me and said; "Your time is running out". Now I'm not sure if He meant I'm not going to live for another month or time moves fast and your average lifespan isn't very long. Either way this made me really think about how it would affect the people around me when I die. What do I give to people around me (for example joy or meaningful thoughts) that if it was to stop being given would affect them? This really made me think about not living my life for myself, but others and God.

            Don't wast your life searching for a good life in the wrong things. Go live your life, you can change it. You need to get past the walls holding you from real life. Die to yourself and live for God. Life is singular so what are you going to do about it? Are you going to live your life profoundly, live for God, and make the most of the life you have?

Monkinisom

Pre-Claimer (This is not a statement of pride or recognition its is merely to express how sometimes your idea of things aren't necessarily the same for everyone or circumstances).

              As a few of you know I was at city challenge this summer. I could try to talk about that week but it would be extremely hard to break it down to a lower level and make it shorter. This is what I'm finding nowadays, that alot of people shortened all these experiences into little blips. That's why i say stop looking at twitter and texts and really get down, talk to people and get deep with something that has meaning, or profound that is. Anyways coming back from city challenge I felt like alot of my daily experiences were going to change or stop. However, what happened was some stuff changed like I had quiet time once a week and I felt more comfortable praying in public. As a whole though not much changed, I was still on the computer alot when i could be doing better stuff with my time. As a result I decided to quit being on the computer for a week. However, I didn't just stop there I thought of how the computer took time away I could be spending with God and how alot of other stuff I do takes time I could use for God too.

               In the end this realization ended up turning into a week-long fast from anything unnecessary that takes time I could be using for God. Now there were a few exceptions for things that are a little more necessary like eating, bathing, working, and obeying my parents when they have me do stuff on the computer or other things not allowed. What wasn't allowed was taking in media, reading books, other than the Bible, and things I do not directly related to serving God. That means no chainmaille and duck tape.

               The first day started out quiet well, I had my quiet time then went throughout the day doing stuff I had to do and when I had time I prayed or read the Bible. I'm not sure how to explain this, but the first day I guess I didn't have the connection with God I felt like I should of had. I couldn't figure out why it felt this way at this point.
               Now by the second day I think I was feeling withdraw, not from the computer, but from all my projects. God gave me the thought that i was probably feeling an un-connection with God because I wasn't allowing myself to use the gifts He had given me. I also felt like the only thing that got me to day four was God and being able to practice guitar. Guitar was the only artsy thing i was allowed to do and it gave me so much joy to use a gift that God has blessed me with. One of the things I have learned from this experience is that when I don't use the gifts God has given me I feel like I lose part of my connection with God. Even though I was making God  happy by fasting all this stuff, He didn't want me to feel alright not using the gifts He has given me.

               Another thing I wasn't expecting to learn was about calling. I sorta though that God really wants all his children to completely devote there lives to Him by forgetting the world and spending all their time with him. I mean like being a monk. However, I'm not saying I thought that God doesn't call everybody to spread His name across the world, I'm saying I thought God might want me to do this fast for the rest of my life. God wasn't saying that though, what He said really hit me. God called me to not do what I was doing during this fast for Him the rest of my life. God way saying to me to Not stop using my gifts, but to use my gifts, and make them better so I can do great things for Him with them. Not much feels better than doing what God calls you to do. Without profoundness of thought i might have never found this great lesson out.

 Dis-claimer (Now all I have written here God said to me. You have to go out and find what God has called you to do. You might find it during a fast like I did, but there are alot of other ways God talks to people so probably not).

Randomness of Mind

When life finds randomness life becomes random. Now as how random and unexplicit that is, it means much. Randomness is a must in life, without it life would be dull, boring, normall, and not changing. Why am I talking about randomness when this blog is about profoundness? This is because randomness and profoundness sorta go together. Two of the definitions of profoundness are: 1.Coming as if from the depths of one's being. 2.Penetrating beyond what is superficial or obvious. The first part explains what i want these posts to be; From the depths of me. God is living inside of me so hopefully what comes from the depths of me comes from God. The second part is about non-obvious things, that is where randomness comes in. I like to look at things differently than other people would. This causes what I see as my point of view to be seen by other people much different or random.