So as I have metioned before I was at city challenge this summer with my youth group and how much it has affected me. This time I want to mention the first night we were there. It was the first night so all of us had no idea what to expect or think. My sub-group in my youth group went to a homeless ministry place in Columbus where we would start out and then go give out food to the homeless.
The first two places we went to where the homless met together we were just getting used to what we were doing. By the last place we were still uncomfortable, but we were getting alittle more used to it.
At the last place we stoped we were almost done, but there was still about one guy alone who still needed food so I went over to him. He was an older gentleman with that sorta rough, homeless person, that has seen alot of stuff on the streets look. I asked him if he wanted some food, then after he took his food I was about to leave and go back to my group because I felt awkward and sorta isolated he stoped me and said "Do you want to know how to kill someone?" I responed back "nah, I'm ok". Then he just started talking about how in the army they just teach you how to kill people and how he was in the Vietnam War and what that was like. Then he talked about how he spent three years over there just killing poeple and how at first its hard to kill people in a way, but you have to because if you don't kill them they will kill you. He also later metioned how he had killed someone just a couple of streets away once too.
At this point Brooks Gleckner who was in my sub-group was still over at the van with most of the group. Caryn our group leader was alittle worried about me being alone over there talking to that guy and thought I looked like I was uncomfortable. As a result she sent Brooks over to just be there for company because the guy did look a little shady.
As brooks came over the first thing he heard was the guy saying "You ever think of killing anyone?" Then Brooks sees the guy reach into his pocket and fumble around as if he had a gun in his pocket at that moment. Brooks was all worried at this point and then when the guy pulled his hand out of his pocket and pointed at me Brooks really though I was a goner. After we noticed it was just the guy's hand the guy starts laughing and we are just nervously laughing along with him. Then all of a sudden he stops laughing and just abruptly says "I'm Serious!" After that point I was still unsure of whether to laugh or not.
I on the other hand was slightly worried durring the time the guy had his hand in his pocket. All I had running through my mind was, does he have a gun or doesn't he?
There is a great quote in the movie Cars 2 where Finn Mcmissile says "You never feel more alive then when your almost dead." This Is a very true quote and I must say I like to live on the edge because of how it feels. However, when Brooks told me he thought I was a goner all I could do was laugh. I just don't have fear for my life. I belive my little fear for life is from when I gave my life to God. Because God has my life I can't die because Jesus already did that for me. I Signed up to Die - by Thi'ls explaines this point perfectly
Death don't have a hold on me
So death don't put no fear in me
I don't think that you hearin me
I signed up to die
Because God owns my life I no longer have to fear the pain of death and torment I can therefore live profoundly and without fear of loss of life. I can live my life God has given me, which I gave to Him.
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