Unexplainable

On the 20th I had the opportunity to go to a Tenth Avenue North, Rend Collective Experiment, and Moriah Peters concert. I knew it was going to be a good concert because I have seen Tenth Avenue North twice before at creation. However, something happened that I didn't expect and it was totally amazing!

A lot of times I find it quite hard to really get into a concert because I'm normally too self conscious to just go crazy. However, at the Tenth Avenue North concert I was able to be who I am. Now I didn't go crazy, but I did sing like I meant it because I did. One of the things that really stuck out to me was the cool, odd instruments that the Rend Collective Experiment used. The drums they played were really cool and the one girl was first playing a glockenspiel (metal xylophone), then an accordion, and then a trash can along with a bass drum. I don't know what it is with me, but when you have really cool instruments in a really good song I can get past some of my self-consciousness to be who I am.

All of this added up to the point where I had an insane amount of joy, I mean it was busting out of face in the form of laughter and huge smiles! This joy and the lyrics directed me into a state of worship. I know you don't see me as the hand raising type, but outside of my church I sometimes do it. Because I got past my self-consciousness I was able to allow myself to be mostly comfortable with raising my hands.

The reason the title is called unexplainable is because what was happening inside of me during the worship was well, unexplainable. I mean I would like to try to explain what that night was like, but I'm afraid to mess up and not give enough credit. The joy, worship, and connection to God I had was so great I passed my self-conscious boundaries. I think its safe to say that was the most real worship I have ever had. My joy level, peace level, and my contentness level was insanely high. Everything seamed in a way just right, but then we had to leave and go back into the "real" world. However, I wasn't going back into the 'real world" alone I had God helping me and the armor of God to use. In a way the lyrics from the song called the struggle sums it up.

The Struggle - Tenth Avenue North
Hallelujah
We are free to struggle
We're not struggling to be free

I guess what I'm trying to say is one of the things I learned from the concert was that worship, true worship to God will change your life forever. How it will change your life and its power will probably be unexplainable. If you truly worship the creator of the universe you will probably receive an extremely profound and intense joy.